I am the Lord your God

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“I will show my greatness and Holiness”

Our God of zeal and fiery wrath. He who makes Himself known in the sight of man and all nations. You are great and Holy. When you speak, it shall surely come to pass. Display your glory and splendour over our lives, reminding us of your sovereignty. We repent on our unfaithfulness and wicked ways. Hide not your face from us. We plead for your compassion and mercies. For we ask that you may restore our souls back to the very first love. Pour out your Spirit on us, revive us once again and heal our hearts. Precious Lord Jesus Christ may your Grace meet us at our very point of need. Bless your great and Holy name.

Amen

9 He replied, “Go your way, Daniel, because the words are rolled up and sealed until the time of the end. 10 Many will…

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“We knew God before you”

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“The gospel is so simple that small children can understand it, and it is so profound that studies by the wisest theologians will never exhaust its riches.” ‘Charles Hodge

 

“You can’t know God more than us, we were saved before you, we experienced his miracles before you and we were then like you now.” Worst of all …”you cannot each us about God because we have been where you are, and you will find yourself where we are now”. I can attest that I heard the above statements countless times over the past years. At some point, it seemed as though knowing God and having a relationship with Him was a contest. Consequently, salvation was more of a sprint and the angels kept scores. There is nothing as worse as diming a ‘lesser person’s’ walk of faith and as a result this made me shy from testifying my experiences…

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I am the Lord your God

“I will show my greatness and Holiness”

Our God of zeal and fiery wrath. He who makes Himself known in the sight of man and all nations. You are great and Holy. When you speak, it shall surely come to pass. Display your glory and splendour over our lives, reminding us of your sovereignty. We repent on our unfaithfulness and wicked ways. Hide not your face from us. We plead for your compassion and mercies. For we ask that you may restore our souls back to the very first love. Pour out your Spirit on us, revive us once again and heal our hearts. Precious Lord Jesus Christ may your Grace meet us at our very point of need. Bless your great and Holy name.

Amen

9 He replied, “Go your way, Daniel, because the words are rolled up and sealed until the time of the end. 10 Many will be purified, made spotless and refined, but the wicked will continue to be wicked. None of the wicked will understand, but those who are wise will understand.

Daniel 12:9-10

Kari Jobe – Forever

Kari Jobe – Forever

If there are words for Him then I don’t have them.

See my brain has not yet reached the point where it could form a thought that could adequately describe the greatness of my God.

And my lungs have not yet developed the ability to release a breath with enough agility to breathe out the greatness of His Love.

And my voice, see my voice is so inhibited , restrained by human limits that it’s hard to even sing the praise up, you see, if there are words for Him, then I don’t have them.

My God, His Grace is remarkable, mercies are innumerable, strength is impenetrable, He is honorable, accountable, favorable.

He’s unsearchable yet knowable, indefinable, yet approachable, indescribable, yet personal

He is beyond comprehension, further than imagination, constant through generations, King of every nation, but if there are words for Him, then I don’t have them

You see my words are few to try and capture the ONE TRUE GOD, using my vocabulary will never do, but I use words as an expression, an expression of worship to a Savior, a Savior who is both worthy and deserving of my praise, so I use words.

My heart extols the Lord, blesses His Name forever. He has won my heart, captured my mind, and has bound them both together. He has defeated me in my rebellion, conquered me in my sin, He has welcomed me into His presence, completely invited me in. He has made Himself the object of my sight, flooding me with mercies in the morning, drowning me with Grace in the night, but if there are words for Him, then I don’t have them.

But what I do have is GOOD NEWS, for my God knew that manmade words would never do, for words are just tools that we use to point to the truth.

So He sent His Son Jesus Christ as THE WORD, LIVING PROOF, He is THE IMAGE OF THE INVISIBLE GOD, THE FIRST BORN OF ALL CREATION, FOR BY HIM ALL THINGS WERE CREATED, GIVING NOTHINGNESS, FORMATION.

AND BY HIS WORD HE SUSTAINS IN THE POWER OF HIS NAME. FOR HE IS BEFORE ALL THINGS AND ABOVE ALL THINGS HE REIGNS. HOLY IS HIS NAME!

SO PRAISE HIM FOR HIS LIFE! THE WAY HE PERSERVERED IN STRIFE. THE HUMBLE SON OF GOD BECOMING THE PERFECT SACRIFICE.

PRAISE HIM FOR HIS DEATH! THAT HE WILLINGLY STOOD IN OUR PLACE THAT HE LOVINGLY ENDURED THE GRAVE THAT HE BATTLED OUR ENEMY, AND ON THE THIRD DAY ROSE IN VICTORY.

HE IS EVEYTHING THAT WAS PROMISED.

PRAISE HIM AS THE RISEN KING.

LIFT YOUR VOICE AND SING, FOR ONE DAY HE WILL RETURN FOR US, AND WE WILL FINALLY BE UNITED WITH OUR SAVIOR FOR ENTERNITY! ETERNITY!

SO IT IS NOT JUST WORDS THAT I PROCLAIM, FOR MY WORDS POINT TO THE WORD, AND THE WORD HAS A NAME, HOPE HAS A NAME, JOY HAS A NAME, PEACE HAS A NAME, LOVE HAS A NAME, AND THAT NAME IS JESUS CHRIST!

PRAISE HIS NAME FOREVER!!!!!!!!” 

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‘A reality altered, is faith being built in the gymnasium of obscurity’

Life is random; things happen throwing us in a boxing ring where we wrestle with our faith. We never truly know who we are until something drastic happens paralyzing us on our tracks. By that I mean, a tragedy can hit making us question the very core of our being and where we stand with Christ. Over the years in my walk with God, though am still maturing in faith. One thing I have learnt in certainty is When God wants your attention, He will get it. Where Christ wants to reveal himself…He will show up in the most unexpected circumstance which are very unrelated, untimely and unplanned. A few Sundays back, I woke as usual to prepare to go to church. Checked my phone and I could see I had ample time on my hands. While in the bathroom, ‘my thoughts wandered’ to Pharaoh of Egypt verses God who identifies himself as ‘I AM’. My meditation moment struck Exodus 11-12, which ended with God’s angel killing the firstborns of Egyptian both man and animals. This was the 10th plague that softened pharaohs heart a demonstration of power on God’s part to show a prideful heart that challenges Him in a ‘win or die situation’. I remember a voice assuring me how relentless God can be/was on delivering his children from bondage to an extent that other children had to die…a symbol of truth in/of the Word. This bared witness as the greatest act of love when he gave up His only son Jesus Christ who dies at the cross, the sacrificial lamb of mankind. Dressed and ready to have breakfast I picked my phone, only to see several missed calls and messages. I felt my heart drop deep as I read one of the messages, my little cousin not so little anymore had taken his own life.

I remember experiencing a level of paralysis where my body was numbed by some cold feeling that left a feeling of anguish and despair. I kept thinking and even uttered it loud at some point that “we had failed him”. At that moment as everything sank in, I could feel an extent of guilt. This is because I was once in the same boat; where your mental struggle vs your reality and how you perceive life, both holds a heavy blinded perspective that sees no way out but rather burdensome. I remember reaching this point where you can’t just seem to grasp your way out of it. It’s like you keep falling in a lonely pit of darkness and the little air you have is being pushed out of your lungs. I can also recall the first time I got to learn about his predicaments, I reached out to the closest relative and inquire if he was getting intense help because something had shown me it would be dire next time. Yet, I was too scared to voice my opinions out loud. The week of his demise, he had flashed in my mind to inquire if he was okay. This was my favourite cousin as a baby/toddler. I would even trade my Sunday morning breakfast especially the sausages or the eggs with my eldest brother just to carry him by myself the whole time in church. He was this adorable dark baby with a big hoarse voice, when he cried those of us on the church balcony would know Sammy was having a moment.

One time we had gathered to celebrate his first birthday, he was walking around the dining table opening his mouth to be fed by every guest. Well, my eldest brother in his all wisdom of pranks decided to feed him a spoon of rice mixed with hot pepper sauce. The baby boy could breath, he did not cry though but just opened his mouth to motion something was not right. We gave him orange soda, which he downed almost half a glass then thought it was funny and went back straight to my brother to feed him again the same food. I remember during the sleepovers, his love for cabbage and ugali as a toddler would amaze me. Fast forward as life would have it, we all went different paths due to family dynamics that was beyond us. They say when two bulls fight the grass suffers, well the last time I saw him physically after years of no contact, before me was a tall young man in suit walking out of church. One thing I noted is as he was walking towards me was that he was slouched, as if trying to conceal his height even though it made him stand out already. I was happy see to him including his brothers nonetheless, the pleasantries were very short and precise. At that very time it felt like we were more like long lost neighbours than immediate cousins. Next time I saw him was through a video call where he said his regards an immediately disappeared in the background.  In his Eulogy I could tell that he was a neat person something he must have picked from his father, with culinary skills a trait visible in the clan. Another thing that stood out was his love for music and that explains why he wanted to start a band. I remember him posting it on social media where he advertised the positions available and I thought at last! we were going to have a serious band owner in the family. Maybe you would have minister through music, granted that it’s a gift from God. What would have been the chances that your band would have spiritually echoed to a world so lost like David sang Psalm 40:3 He put a new song in my mouth’. You had a desire and instrumental gift bestowed upon you, granted the opportunity we would have witnessed the evidence of God image in us through your music.

Nevertheless, as God would permit it. A sensitive heart with a misunderstood mind can easily become a wandering soul and a broken spirit trapped in a desert of humanity. The further along we go, the lonelier it gets. What God taught me in this season of misfortune; was that the author of our being, creator and sustainer of life has the privilege to take this life which is not our right but bestowed on us through His mercy and Grace. Hence, the peculiarities of tragedies in our lives is the evidence of God in pursuit of man. He allows it in order to awaken our souls or make us aware of who are in Him. To bring us on our knees so He alone can meet us at that very point of our need. Lest we forget! It’s never about us, but for the Glory of Christ taking its rightful position to fill the very place the enemy thinks he has left empty. May that sitting space you left empty in the dining table in your home, be the very position that Christ fills and partakes in the family meals. As for the gap left hollow during family prayers according to His promise in John 14:16, may it be filled by the Helper/comforter/counselor who saturates our souls and abides in us forever. You remain in my heart forever as a tested soul that endured it’s time. As we remember the God who took the firstborn sons gave up his own firstborn Son.

Ps: The message on your last picture on WhatsApp a fresco painting by Michelangelo c.1508-1512 on Creation of Adam but then again one thing stood out, you choose close up of the hands. Where Adam’s hand on the left is a little limp and his index finger could be extended more. While, God, on the right, cannot reach out anymore, as his index finger is fully extended. Metaphorically all Adam has to do, is to lift a finger, and he will make the connection with his Creator.

Jesus straightened up and said to her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?” She said, “No one, sir.” And Jesus said, “Neither do I condemn you. Go your way, and from now on do not sin again.”

“There is only one who has ever been able to say He who is without sin cast the first stone, there is only one who has every right to cast the stone and chose not to do it.” Priscilla Shirer

John 7:53-8:11

Happy International women day!

 

To the women who have paved the way for us, leading into a contemporary world where gender roles is still a debatable subject.

To the women who stood for us and made the difference when the world perceived us to be the weaker gender.

To the women who lead us in positions which created equal opportunities.

To the women who inspire us through their idealogies by defining our roles in gender mainstream .

To the women who empowered us as daughters and molded our characters, nipping us in the bud in readiness for the society.

Lastly, to the women who are looking up to us for guidance and following in our footsteps. 

I celebrate you wherever you are.

You are magnificent.

Happy International women day!!!

I aM mY MotHER’s DaUGHter

As daughter, I reflect my mother! Therefore, I believe that…

“Your greatest contribution to the kingdom of God may not be something you do, but someone you raise.”

I mirror her words, her thoughts and her actions. Most of all I mirror her HEART. So yes, though my last name is my identity. When I walk, how I think, and talk reflects on who my mother is. As a future mother may my Heart reflect on God word, the attributes of Christ Jesus.

“All that I Am, I owe to my mother.”

He IS iN aLl tHIngS anD tHRoUgh AlL tHinGS

I recently quit my job!

Colossians 1:17 He is before all things, and in him all things hold together.

“Every miracle in the Bible first started as a problem.”

When God says “the time is ripe see, I have placed an open door before you (Rev 3:8),” it takes Faith wrapped in boldness to take the next step. Many are the times I believe we pray to God to change situations in our lives however when He starts making the moves we let fear cripple our belief and go back into our misery. This is because when God starts His work in us, He throws us in not so comfortable situations. He destabilizes our life as we know it, He asks as to take a leap of faith into a place of unknown or untold. I have learnt to welcome the changes in various areas of my life; while at it, it has awaken my soul with thirst for more of God. For I know His word is absolute, faith will triumph because heavenly promises are always kept.

So yes I left my job as God led me, I had worked for 3 years (Sept 2014 to Aug 2017). Where I started as an intern then moved to entry level. Truth be told according to “my plan” it was to be a short term contract. Get in, do internship as am looking for something concrete. However, God had other plans, He placed me there “temporarily” 3 years LOL! (He has a sense of Humor). In order to teach me a lot about myself and where my Faith stood (I was tested). I believe it was the best environment for my separation period. It reminds me of the story of Jacob (Genesis 32:22-32) in that solitude Jacob wrestled with God (typical human nature to fight God in everything). God was after Jacob’s heart, He wanted to lift His servant up and given Jacob’s history a fighter on the run. He wrestled with him and he yielded. God revealed Himself. Once again Jacob is compelled to give his identity but this time it is before God who is all knowing. He acknowledges truthfully and thereafter comes blessings and ownership of his life.

27 The man asked him, “What is your name?”

“Jacob,” he answered.

28 Then the man said, “Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel,[a]because you have struggled with God and with humans and have overcome.”

Three years is a long time, I learnt that God did not want superficial faith which was bail me out of this situation kind of God. He is and will always be after my heart, not just worship but complete surrender and ownership of who I am in Him. Once again I found myself before His presence completely out of strength, on my knees crying out to him “speak you servant is listening”. I had to surrender my anxiety, be quiet and stop striving and indeed I have seen His power manifest over my life (Psalm 46:10). He fought for me in the workplace when I was unwanted… He used unexpected person to keep me in the position until He was ready to lift me to the next place of royalty. He is a God who loves His Princesses, and true to it My Father is a King.

Beginning of this year He revealed to me of the great works He was beginning to do in my life. I was going to have a grand move as it was my last year in the work place. I remember I prayed for a move as I felt limited in terms of growth. At the same time I prayed that He may open away financially for me to pursue further studies. I believe He is Faithful and His Ears are inclined to His Children cry. Put your Faith in Him and surely He will answer of even much greater things. Time has come, He has opened away when everything seemed impossible and He gave me His word surely! It has comes to pass. As I take the next step of faith I know He is already there. He has set it up for me, for there is beauty and reward in trusting in our true God. He is a God of all Seasons and all times. My prayer is that He helps me to see the blessing that am walking on. “May I never step out of my obedience walk with Him in order to get something out of His will. Because for sure I will have to stay out of God to keep it.” Its all in His Hands for His Grace covers me. That is all I know and All I need. He says He made me out nothing so I will trust Him to take care of me…Glory belongs to Him who never left my side.

Mark 9:23 Jesus said to him, “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.”

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“Once you fall in love… its different.” that’s what my friend told me a few days back According to friend dearest It’s easy to convince yourself you’re not in love with someone, until you see that person one day and then your Damn heart whispers, “Here we go again!”  Even a mistake may turn out to be the one thing necessary to a worthwhile achievement. Somethings you hide at the bottom of your heart because you don’t want them mentioned, others you hope someone asks about even though you’re hiding them. No need for perfection just be true and it will come knocking on your door!!!”

We accept the love we think we deserve.” ― Stephen Chbosky,

PS: IF CHRIST DIED FOR YOU THEN YOU DESERVE MORE,

MUCH MORE

 

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